The former child superstar spoke about her battles with drug use and added that she didn’t start partying until “shes been” 25 — and never really drank alcohol.
“I started smoking marijuana when I was 16, ” she said. “I didn’t get addicted[ then] and I wasn’t abusing it. And I wasn’t going out and partying or making a buffoon of myself … yet . ”
Bynes’ drug use speedily accelerated to more dangerous drugs, like molly and ecstasy, though she acknowledges she only utilized cocaine three times and didn’t like it. But the one medication she liked — and later “abused, ” in her words — was Adderall.
”[ I was] reading an article in a magazine that[ called Adderall]’ the new skinny pill’ and they were talking about how girls were taking it to stay thin. I was like,’ Well, I have to get my hands on that, ’” Bynes confessed.
The more Adderall the actress took, the less she could focus on her lines for the movie “Hall Pass.” Bynes subsequently dropped out of the movie, but kept up her Adderall use, which she said led to horrible feelings about her lookings and abilities in the movie “Easy A.”
“I literally couldn’t stand my appearance in that movie and I didn’t like my performance. I was absolutely convinced I needed to stop acting after watching it, ” she said, before afterward announcing she was retiring from acting in a tweet at the time.
“I was high on marijuana when I considered that but for some reason it really started to affect me. I don’t know if it was a drug-induced psychosis or what, but it affected my brain in a different way than it affects other people. It utterly changed my perception of things, ” Bynes said.
The actress, who has been sober for four years now, seems back at her drug use and her activity on Twitter with regret.
“I’m truly ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back period but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It induces me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad, ” the 32 -year-old said.
“Everything I worked my whole life to attain, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter, ” she said. “It’s definitely not Twitter’s fault — it’s my own fault.”
Bynes previously constructed headlines over the years after she got two apprehends for DUI, two hit-and-run charges and a suspended driver’s license within three years. Though many questioned the actress’ mental health, she maintains she is “normal” when she is not on substances.
“Those days of experimenting[ with substances] are long over. I’m not sad about it and I don’t miss it because I really feel ashamed of how those substances made me act, ” Bynes told Paper.
“When I was off of them, I was altogether back to normal and immediately realise what I had done — “its like” an foreigner had literally invaded my body. That is such a strange feeling.”
Last year, Bynes devoted an interview for the first time in four years and spoke about her drug use, her subsequent sobriety and her desire to return to acting.
“I do miss acting ,” she said in an interview with Hollyscoop’s Diana Madison in 2017. “I actually have something surprising to tell you: I’m going to start acting again.”
Bynes added, “I want to do TV. Maybe a few guest spots on some shows that I’m a fan of, and maybe another Tv show where I’m the star of it.”
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